Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #009

There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa

Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

For those who love me and like me for who i am.
For those who never tired entertain me.
For those who never leave me.

2008

dua ribu lapan sudah hampir ke penghujung. byk yg terjadi, byk perlu dilupakan, byk yang masih perlu diperbaiki. i think i'm gonna blog about what happen to me this past one year. takde la aku nak buat karangan, karang jd benda lain. so, long story short.

1. have a relationship and broke up one and half month after that. because of something that only him and i and few other peoples know why. regret that i broke his heart. :|
2. balik kampung sendiri naik bas dgn adik for the first time! malam lagi. :)
3. call someone just to wish his birthday at midnight and tuck him to sleep. on the phone la. for the first time. :D
4. like someone but kept it to myself for quite sometime but then forget him.
5. lose some friends and found new great one! :)
6. don't like my teacher and don't do my homework. for the first time.
7. tell a friend's secret to the whole group. sorry ah, makkk!
8. had the best raya ever! haha.
9. didn't talk to someone for months eventhough we see each other like everyday.
10. been told that i have thyroid and need to take medicine for life time! :O
11. felt more bless with my family and friends. and myself. :)
12. bought to much shoes! :O
13. having a unstable mood for the most time.
14. met fynn jamal. and wanna met her again. :)
15 have a friend that i can always depend on and i can tell everything. :)

apa lagi haaa? tu je la kot. xde yg besar2 sgt pun jd. tapi aku sendiri yang buat mcm ada benda besar jadi.

so, selamat tinggal dua ribu lapan. selamat datang dua ribu sembilan.
hope everything will be much better next year. :)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Haha!

how on earth can i thought today result pmr keluar? maybe because last year result keluar hari ni. haha. so like ussual, i wish all of the juniors gdluck. when i asked one of them this moring;

"dah keluar result belum?"
"belum lg la kak. 30 baru keluar."

haha. and i was like, "belum keluar?" so yeah.

i still remember my day. bgn awl gila ok. nervous punya psl. tp pagi2 tu boleh control. tp bila kat sekolah cikgu sume dah suruh line up according to class, mmg shaking gila. tgn dah start sweating. cikgu start with 8A students dulu. masa dah dkt dgn nombor giliran aku, lg aku takut. sekali dah lepas. i was like, "mhmm, tak dpt la ni." then yg lain kene gi kat meja2 yg disusun amek result kat ckg kelas. yg 8A tu naik pentas. bila amek tu aku tgk la kat kertas ckg, aku tgk 5A. terus aku nagis. mak keah, which happen to be salah seorg parents kwn aku yg kenal aku tanya aku dpt berapa. aku tunjuk la lima. then masa teacher bg slip, sijil semua aku sign la kat kertas apa tah, aku lupa. aku tak tgk pun slip tu. sampai kat along aku terus peluk adik, bg slip kat along. along tanya berapa aku jwb la lima. then along mcm;

"lima? bkn tujuh ke? cuba awk kira betul2."
"heh? tujuh?"

aku pun kira la. haha. then masa tu aku dah happy gilaaaa! at least cukup untuk masuk pure science, which sekarang aku dah start muak dgn aliran tu. haha. then, pg la jumpa semua org yg aku knl tanya result semua. ada yg aku tak sangka dpt lebih dr apa yg aku expect. tp xde la aku nak ckp yg aku expect dorg dpt rendah kan. not like some people.

then blk rumah. i called everyone. i mean, EVERYONE. tell then how many i got. mostly i call my aunties and my friend from other school.

haha. so, untuk juniors yg nk amek result 30hb ni. tgk btl2 slip tu ye. don't be like me.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Dua Ribu Sembilan

picture taken from miss ju yi :)

get myself into bina again next year. i thought i will be in cekal this year because of what i did in my end year exam. i din't study at all okay. so, i'm surprised that i still in bina. happy of course tak turun kelas. but then even happier because i have cool classmate. mcm adik ckp;

"cool gila classmate awk!"

like ussual. i have nothing else to do this holiday except for movie lg. so yesterday tgk cerita di atas, dealova. for me and my sister, cerita ni best. sweet i must say :)

Aku Mahu Berlagu #008

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

This song always makes me cry.
Never fail. Not even once.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #007

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Merry Christmas Everyone. :)

Boredom

You
How would you describe yourself?
undefine?

angel or devil?
little bit of both.

nice or mean?
also little bit of both.

naughty or nice?
little bit of both.

smart or dumb?
dumb a bit.

party animal or book nerd?
just very tiny part of both.

Whats sexy about you?
i don't know. why don't you ask around.

are you confident?
most of the time. well, i used to.

make up or no makeup?
depends where i go. but ussually with make up.

silly or seriouse?
more silly, i think.

shy or outgoing?
outgoing and just a little shy.

boring or fun?
fun. but i can be boring.

quiet or loud?
am loud. u maybe need a pair of earplug.

are you emotional?
now? most of the time. due to the hormone.

happy or sad?
now? just plain.

how much do u weigh?
don't ask me. only one of my friends always now my weigh.

are you tall or short?
not too short, not too tall.

normal or different?
am different.

do you follow trends?
not really.

label yourself?
you mean?

like yourself?
yeah. sort of.

hate yourself?
sometimes.

think your pretty?
sometimes. haha.

make mistakes?
everyone does.

wish you were someone else?
maybe once or twice.

destroy yourself?
no.

do people like you?
go ask them.

wat do pple say about you?
talkative.

who knows you the best?
i got to say lyqa and naim.

Yourr
best physical feature?
i don't know.

most embarrasing moment?
hahaha. the girls know. it was early last year. at a match.

favorite person?
family and friends.

favorite place?
i don't know. beach?

favorite thing to do?
daydreaming.

cellphones brand?
nokia.

screen name?
farah rosni.

favorite city?
i don't know.

favorite sports team?
i don't know.

fear of?
Allah. dark.

saddest moment is?
when people don't understand you.

thoughts of commitment?
err?

thoughts of love?
full of surprise.

thoughts of marriage?
maybe i'll think of it later.

LoVe ~LiFe
guy type?
simple but sweet. that's so typical.

has a guy ever hit you?
yeah. on;y the close one.

what do u hate about guys?
they simply don't care.

still friends with your ex?
yeah. :)

black or white guys?
haha. i don't care.

dork or bad boy or preppy boy or skater boy?
skater boy. :P

ever cheated on someone?
yeah. sorry dude.

ever gotten cheated on?
yes.

what hurts tha most?
when you already give your trust but they break it.

guyfriends or girlfriends?
both.

guys wearing girl pants?
it can be cool.

longest relationship?
2 days to 11 months.

ever been heartbroken?
yes.

broken someones heart?
yeah. twice. erk.

someone u love pass away?
yes.

ever thought about suicide?
few times.

ever did something u regret?
yes.

ever cry over a guy?
hell yeah. how silly is that?

ever write to someone locked up ?
no.

ever got locked up or sent away?
nope.

ever love someone so much it hurt?
yeah.

ever starve yourself to impress a guy?
no way. never.

ever want someone you couldn't have?
yeah.

what would you say about sex?
can you at least be married first? based on love? please?

party wit guys?
haha. once. not wild party ok.

guys who like videogames too much?
friends with few. and close to one. thay kind of irritating.

whats one wish?
can i have more than one.

one thing u are thankful for?
having such fantastic family and friends eventhough sometimes thay drove me nuts!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Fall For You (?)

done this before. but kene tag lagi. so, let see. :)

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal / blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?
better in time by leona lewis
(haha. i don't know)

2. How would you describe yourself?
tanpa by sixth sense
(apa yang tanpa? haha)

3. What do you like in a girl?
masih teserlah ayumu by exist
(well, some does.)

4. How do you feel today?
dirantai digelani rindu by exist
(mhmm?)

5.What is your life's purpose?
too litle too late by jojo
(erk?)

6. What is your motto?
tanpa kekasihku by agnes monica
(haha. adoyai.)

7. What do your friends think of you?
yang pernah by estranged
(yeah baby)

8. What do you think of your parents?
haruskah aku mati by ada bad
(adaka?)

9. What do you think about very often?
fly by hillary duff
(no, no, no bak kata izzaty)

10. What is 2 + 2?
belaian jiwa by innuendo
(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
say it right y nelly furtado
(well, some does)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
backpacking around europe by yuna
(mhmm?)

13. What is your life story?
take my heart by soko
(ada yang nak pegang da tolong jagakan?)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
pretiest friend by jason mraz
(boleh? *senyum mengada*)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
when i grow up by PCD
(haha. aku tak ada suka sapa2 pun skrg.)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
bawaku terbang bu fabulous cats
(tak kot)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
tak bisa memilihmu by sixth sense
(tak tau lah)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
hidupku kan damaika hatimu by caffeine
(erk? no no no)

19. What is your biggest fear?
no promises by shane ward
(afraid of promises, yeah)

20. What is your biggest secret?
be without you by mary j blinge
(siapakah geragannya?)

21. What do you think of your friends?
dan sebenarnya by yuna
(mereka hadiah terbaik. betul ni.)

22. What will you post this as?
fal for you by secondhand serenade

So this is "Labour OF Love" to:

1. haziqah raihah
2. fatin najwa
3. intan
4. .sabrina anuar
5. raihan ali

Friday, December 19, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #006

Boy it’s been all this time
And I can’t get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I’ve prayed for you to say

I should’ve been chasing you
I should’ve been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should’ve said all the things that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could’ve made you believe
That what we had was all we’d ever need

My friends think I’m moving on
But the truth is I’m not that strong
And nobody knows it but me

And I’ve kept all the words you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me

But if you’re happy I’ll get through somehow
But the truth is that I’ve been screaming out

Movies

yeah, i've been doing nothing beside watching movies/dvds, art event, photography exhibition and sculpture exhibition. yeah, i know what you say;

"lagi2 seni. art. photography. xde benda lain ke?"
"mcm xde life"
"loner lah kau."

it's like, so what. aku suka, so i went. there's place that aku patut pegi, but i didn't go. so, sorry girls.

so here are some movies that i've watch:


tgh tayang kat 8tv tiap2 ahad pukul 3.
tapi aku dah tgk smpai habis.
best :)
mmg kdg2 rasa mcm bodoh gila cerita ni. tp entah la ada hidden message.
tgk and cari sendiri eyh.

five things about this movie:
1. scares me to death to have a boyfriend.
2. makes me want a boyfriend who plays guitar even more.
3. makes me appreciate my family more, even sometimes they drive me nuts!
4. makes me appreciate my very own self, for what i am even more. :)
5. it just makes me smile all day long. (i think maybe aaron johnson will appear in my dream)

super funny!
and it makes you appreciate your friends more.
it also open your eyes: sometimes person that you love just next door and it takes you half the world to realise it.

bought this movie last week(?)
seriously, it a very sad movie. that's why it called sad movie. but i kept laughing, because some parts are just really funny.

(adik, i don't care if you've put it. i want to put it too)
below this are like their wishes/things they felt/ stuff they're wondering: (sorta)
(according the above picture)

"Today, I will make her the happiest woman on Earth."
"Today, I'm hoping for a rainy weather."

"As long as she don't leave me, I don't give two hoots about other lovers in this world breaking off."
"Love sustains itself even without all the material things in life, I have lost faith in this proverb."

"When will I be give a chance to draw he face?"
Does this man holds the key to my heart?"

"I'm always busy, I'm not a good mother to my son."
"I know that it is bad to lie, but losing one's mother is worse than this."

and now, are like their story.
(according to the above picture too)

"I love you"
A 30-year-old fireman choose a ring for his girlfriend, hoping to be with her forever.

"I understand"
A young slacker and a deep-hearted woman see their long-lasting love start to grow cold.

"Thanks"
Dreaming of first love, a deaf woman who hides a wound on her face pursues him from behind."

"I'm sorry"
An 8-year-old boy who longs for his mother's embrace, locked in battle with his always busy mother.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Rantai Revelation


yeah. aku ada di rantai since jumaat. tp hari ni xjd pergi. at first nak pg coz nak tgk wani ardy. but masing2 dah penat en and sampai rumah lewat je. so yeah.

first day, sampai dlm pukul 1 mcm tu. so, mencari2 la jln ke red bungalow tu, sbb kami masing2 xpenah pegi. hampir satu klcc tu kami pucing. haha. aku terasa bodoh sekejap msa tu. then, teringat aisyah and kat penag pegi last year. so text aisyah sbb xde number kat. atas bantuan mereka kami dah boleh cari kat mana red bungalow tu. thanks girls. ouh, and afiq too, tp sbb perut dah berkeroncong, kami pegi cari mkn dulu. bkn spt org lain, kami kurg fancy mkn di restoran2 ni. so, fastfood je la. and take away the food. mkn kn tmn, konon mcm picnic la en. haha. and, masa nk jln ke our favourite spot to eat, guess who i met? AIMAN NABIHAH!! god, i missed her so much. haven't met her in a year! sadly we didn't take any photo. haha. mkn2 then sudah dkt 2.30. make our move to the bungalow. sampai sahaja kami nampak mcm weird gila, coz we're like "nk msk ke tak? msk ke tak?" so, msk dlm tgk the paintings, lomo pictures and stuff. jenguk juga gerai2 tu. so it's cool even nmpk mcm ada 'kosong' sikit. then, nmpk kat. tegur her and she said, last year mcm 'penuh' sikit. took some photos of course. then, when we were in one room, i saw a toilet with bathtub! thought to go in there and took some photos but ada some guy msk and close the door with no entry sign. what a miss. after loitering around. we make a move to klcc. it was 3.40 i guess. so, i suggest to my sister "why don't we watch a movie?" bila tgk yg rasa mcm menarik ada twilight je, but adik tak mahu tgk, so, we make a move to kinokuniya. thought to buy some books, but, heh, tak cukup duit. so, yeah share money with along to buy some malay novels. from habiburrahman of course. i've fall for his writing since ayat-ayat cinta. then gg sampai and i said "eyh, jom pg kedai petrosains tu! explorasi" haha. yeah. i don't know why i want to go there. just for fun. after that went to galeri petronas for a self imaging exhibition by soraya talismail. i forgot her full name. then we went to jusco first to buy some food before went back with taxi.

second, day pg lmbt sikit dlm pukul 3.30 coz performance ptg and sbb hujan lg. adik epgi kelas gitar lg. adik blk je, kami siap2, tunggu hujan reda sikit, then jln pegi tunggu teksi. teksi semua tak nak duit. tahan xnk berhenti. ats nasihat dua org uncle india ni, kami pegi la cross jln kat taxi stand dpn tu. so, thanks uncle. sampai je kami terus pg the red bungalow. hujan tahu. nasib baik kami pakai kasut. kecuali along yg paki wedges aku. so, alert semua, kasut belum cuci lg. sampai sahaja, guess who we met? MISS FYNN JAMAL! my favourite poetess. gg tlg tegur dia. i guess he know if dia tak tegurkan, mesti kiteorg susah nak tegur. segan. salam sama dia. thanks kak fynn igt kami. pasti yg plg excited annysa. aku rasa dia peminat kak fynn yg plg kecik. hahaha. comel je. akak nampak sgt comel ok! then bergerak ke tepi 'pentas'. ana raffali mau perform, diiring oleh marhaens. ada aidit alfian, andy flop poppy. yeah. she look so cute. seriously. adn she sound a lot better live. then there's this band called lightcraft. sgt best mereka. :) took lots of pictures of kak fynn, with kak fynn, kak fynn with abg tri and abg tri with his brother. after that kami tgk jam sudah pukul 6.30 then, pg mkn kat avenue k dulu. then dlm 7.30 mcm tu g blk the red bungalow. ada this band playin. great music guys. seriously. then after that. poetry recital session. there's three person. i'm sorry i can't remember their names. the first guy was very kelakar. the second guy's poetry was err..tegas i guess? yeah, tegas. the third one of course kak fynn. kak, meremang bulu roma puisi yg first tu. after that, before blk took last picture with kak fynn then made our way to home. a very long day but worth it. four of us get what we come to see. :)

and you know what. annysa mendapat perhatian yg sgt byk. tak melampau kalau saya cakap begitu rasanya. i saw some photographer taking her photos because she was very kecik, as in very what aa..rendah for twelve years old. lagi lah sbb she went to center taking photos with the dslr. haha.

and i certainly sure we saw awin, as in gadis jahat there. but tak sure lah.

Sudenly

macam semua concern kan?
apasal aa? padahal selama ni kau tinggal aku kan?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #005

Dari jauh ku lihat dia
bagai berdiri di balik tingkap kaca
Mengintai setiap gerak halusnya
cukup untuk buatku leka

Selagi kedengaran bunyi guruh
selama itu khayalku berlabuh

Alangkah eloknya
jika aku menjadi raja waktu
akan ku himpun masa
untuk dia mengenali aku

Dari jauh ku lihat dia
bagai berdiri di balik tingkap kaca
mengharap setiap detik merangkak
sempat untuk buatnya sedar

Selama kedengaran bunyi guruh
sepanjang itu hatiku pun luruh
hatiku pun luruh

Alangkah eloknya
jika aku menjadi raja waktu
akan ku himpun masa
untuk dia mengenali aku

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Just One Night

one night. i let it all out in one night. one night.

I Had It Enough

you know what? you have an issue. you need to learn to ask people permission before you take their stuff.

you a big girl. go figure it.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

enam hari bulan

sudah genap sembilan bulan rupanya ya?

Do You Only Wanna Dance (?)

along tag.
dah buat. t yg tu tak shufle mode.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?
gimme more by britney spears. (hahaha?)

2. How would you describe yourself?
hips don't lie by shakira (peha aku mana ada mulut nk tipu kau)

3. What do you like in a girl?
rahsia pohon cemara by exist (mhmm?)

4. How do you feel today?
take my heart by soko (sapa nak? aku tak bagi percuma.)

5.What is your life's purpose?
hilang by garasi (aku suka menghilangkan diri kdg2)

6. What is your motto?
tattoo by jordins sparks. (mhmm, aku xtau lah)

7. What do your friends think of you?
mawar khayalan by laila's lounge (ada suka berkhayal teman2?)

8. What do you think of your parents?
hidupku kan damaikan hatimu by caffeine. (tepat sekali!)

9. What do you think about very often?
sampai menutup mata by acha sepriasa (aku mmg sukapikir psl tido.)

10. What is 2 + 2?
all my life by kc ft jojo. (hahahahahhahahahaha!)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
dengarkanlah by glenn ft amy mastura. (nanti aku bebel kau dgr ya?)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
atas nama cinta by rossa. (aku tak suka sapa2 pun skrg ni)

13. What is your life story?
bring me to life by evanescence. (i am in life. duhh.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
first kiss by mandy moore. (do i look fowar for it? no, not really. haaha.)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
ada cinta by irwansyah ft acha. (yeah baby. make it happen. tapi tunggu aku ada pakwe)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding
belaian jiwa by innuendo (yes!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
suratan atau kebetula by pemelodic 9suratan la ngong)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
be without you by mary j blinge (biar benar.)

19. What is your biggest fear?
good girl gone bad. (yep.)

20. What is your biggest secret?
no promises by shayne ward. (aku tanak kasi tau.)

21. What do you think of your friends?
it's not over by secondhand serenade (is it?)

22. What will you post this as?
do you only wanna dance by mya (do you?)

With this, I officially tag 5 people :
a) mei ying
b) hajar mardhiah
c) intan
d) nur syaza
e) aisyah aziqah

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #004

If the elephants have past lives,
Yet are destined to always remember,
It's no wonder how they scream,
Like you and I, they must have some temper.

And I am dreaming of them on the plains,
Dirtying up their beds,
Watching for some kind of rain
To cool their hot heads.

And how dare that you send me that card
When I'm doing all that I can do.
You are forcing me to remember
When all I want is to just forget you.

If the tiger shall protect her young,
Then tell me how did you slip by.
All my instincts have failed me for once
I must have somehow slept the whole night.

And I am dreaming of them with their kill,
Tearing it all apart,
Blood dripping from their lips,
And teeth sinking in to heart.

And how dare that you say you will call,
When you know I need some peace of mind..
If you had to take sides with the animals,
Won't you do it with one who is kind?

If the hawks in the trees need the dead,
If you're living you don't stand a chance.
For a time, though you share the same bed,
There are only two ends to this dance.

You can flee with your wounds just in time,
Or lie there as he feeds,
Watching yourself ripped to shreds
And laughing as you bleed.

So for those of you falling in love,
Keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.
Throw yourself in the midst of danger,
But keep one eye open at night.

Deeply falling for this. :)

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #003

Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Ethan Bortnick

yesterday when i watched martha stewart because i can't sleep, i saw a boy name ethan bortnick. he will turn 8 this 24 december.

he's only three years old when he first played a keybord (the kiddie keybord). he start to compose by the age of five. and and he such a cutie! oh! and he knows 200 pieces by heart.

he even played for nelly furtado, doing the opening! he appeared on martha stewart, good morning america, inside america, access hollywood, the early show and sheryl crow. he even appeared on oprah winfrey show.

he also have his own dvd. and his own website.

god, this kid is amazing!

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #002

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Menangis Lagi

malam tadi aku menangis lagi. kerana rindukan abah.

sabar angah. 3minggu je lagi.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Aku Mahu Berlagu #001

Tertutup sudah pintu pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Ku harus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh terhening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Ku bersedih karena panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu

Friday, November 28, 2008

Don't You Wish

we have this buttons?

*taken from notebookdoodles

honestly, at times i just wish i could go back time, or pause the moment. but as we know, we could never ever get those.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

The Reading Room

i watched this movie last night at 8tv. at first i thought it would be like the oldies movie that i ussually don't watch. but then when the story start to flow, i found it quite interesting. so i watch it. and it like the most interesting story i've ever watch.

"Less hate, more love."
- Helen Campbell

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

School Holidays

i don't know what i have done during this school holiday. but mostly, i only watch movies, dvd's, blog-ing, and msn-ing. just that but here what i've done:-

during last week:
1. sleep late
2. wake up late
3. tidy the house, hall mostly (who ever that have been to my house know how my house look like)
4. basketball-ing with boy-friends and girl-friends
5. watching dvd's when i have noting to do
6. finish 'where rainbows end (its a really great story)
7. eat unhealthyly

this week so far:
1. sleep late, even later
2. wake up late, even much more later
3. tidy the house (going to move on with the 'shoe room' down there)
4. watching movies at along's laptop (because she's home)
5. watching dvd's again
6. read over 'buku merah'
7. eat a little healthyly


so i guess that's all if been done during this one and half week of holidays. there still one month and one week more to go. fortunately nest month i have things to do and my dear corporation teacher already booked me for form1 orientation next year. so i would be so bored. and my parents and grandpa will be back next month so the house will be visit by people 24/7 (not really 24/7, you know what i mean).

27 Dresses


i don't know why. this movie never bores me. i just love the movie.
i don't know why i like it so much. i just, like it.
:)

"Why would you want to be me when you get to be you?"
"But the truth is, fighting with you is the best thing that ever happen to me."
"I went to a wedding where no one ask me to hold their bouquet or the place card or hold their dress while they're pee. Everything was perfect and I didn't care because right then the only thing that matter was the person that waiting for me at the end of the aisle and he was looking at me the way I always hope."
-Jane Nichols (Katherine Heigl)

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Pensil

silalah tonton cerita ini.
tonton, selami, fahami, dan hayati cerita ini.
tonton, selami, fahami dan hayati dari segala aspek.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Aku Tengok Cerita Ni Semalam

semalam. well, tak la semalam. awal pagi td. dr pukul 2 smpai pukul 4. okay, tahu. aku lambat tengok. korang semua dah tengok. ouh ape? korang tak suka cerita ni? xpelah. aku suka. walaupun ada watak yang aku rasa mcm menyibuk je dlm ni. apa2 pun, aku suka cerita ni sampai berapa byk kali aku ckp kat adik,

"ni yang aku nak kawen ni."
"gatal kau ni."
"alah, xpe la. eh cop. pakwe pun xde nak kawen."

pasal cerita ni jgk la aku bgn lmbt tak pergi basketball pagi tadi dan menjawab telefon dgn suara kelakar, bak kata intan. sebab pukul 5 baru aku boleh tidur.

"Jangan tidur selagi belum pukul 3 pagi, kerana biasanya dia akan mengigau jalan malam."
- Adam (Farid Kamil)

Mimpi Aku Pelik

sekarang aku dah ingat apa aku nak tulis.

pasal mimpi aku malam kelmarin. nak tau apa aku mimpi apa? aku berlayar ke angkasa lepas. no, for real. aku mimpi aku pergi angkasa lepas. tanpa kapal angkasa. nak tau aku ke sana dgn apa? dgn satu alat, besar mcm remote control. aku tak tau mcm mana boleh samapi kat situ. tapi yg aku ingat. aku berdiri kat satu tempat kat angkasa. gelap, panjang n dlm tu mcm ada bintang2. milky way kot. aku lupa dah psl angkasa ni. yg aku igt nebulla je. haha. then, ada sorg kata nk pegi bulan. masa tu, bulan ada dpn mata aku je, walaupun berlobang2, tp masa tu aku rasa mcm lawa gila. then aku tekan satu butang merah ni, and aku ke bulan tapi tak sampai bulan. lg siket je nak smpai. aku jatuh kat angkasa tu.

then aku dah bgn tidur. beberapa minit lepas tu, terus azan zuhur. teruk nya anak dara bgn tengah2 hari. patut la pun mimpi pelik2.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Haih, Kalaulah Benar

kalau lah benar mereka jiran terapat kami ini pindah sunyi hidup. mcm yg along ckp ni.

'
lpas ni, tak jumpe.
tak boleh lagi laung melaung dari tingkap hall.
tak boleh lagi petang2 main basikal or badminton.
rumah kami akan hilang hero kecik yang bermain bugs.
dan akan hilang gadis-gadis cilik yang sleepover.
owh, sedih2.'

kami suka laung melaung dr tingkat hall rumah kami ke balkoni rumah mereka. jimat siket bil telefon.
anak-anak uncle mansor sama aunty noi tu mmg suka main sama kami dr kecil dulu sampai dah besar ni.
anaknya yang plg kecil, imran, memang suka sama bugs, insect, lizard. segalah lah. sudah tak ada yg mahu merayu kepada kami supaya di beri tahu pada abah supaya diberikan itu dan ini kerana kononya ayah dan ibu xde duit. padahal tidak.
si gadis sudah tak ada yg bertandang tidur di rumah kami. dan kami tidak lg tidur ke rumah mereka.

nnt tak ada lg imran yg memekik dr balkoni rumahnya ke tingkap rumah kami ajak makan malam/meraikan hari jadi adik-beradik mereka.
tak ada lagi lisa yg selalu menyalah tafsir cerita ibunya.
tak ada lg si bujang yg suka aku usik.


haih. kerinduan aku sama mereka nnt.

Terima Kasih Teman-Teman Yang Menghilangkan Kebosanan Aku Yang Melampau Duduk Kat Rumah Ni

well, pagi ni pagi kedua sepanjang cuti ni aku main basketball sama teman-teman.

katanya pukul 0800. so aku dgn bendul (sebab aku yg simpan bola) sudah sampai ke sana pada 0758 mengikut jam aku. fikirkan ada yg sudah sampai, takut jgk sbb lmbt. bila sampai court yg sepatutnya mengambil masa kurang 5 minit kalau tak berlenggang-lengguk, court kosong. myb lambat sikit. sapa nak bgn awal cuti2 ni. then nabil sampai. lepas tu sorg-sorg sampai. syafiq&nadia, izhar&nabihah, hajar, daniel, afiq&amir, cheeza. then main2 la kejap. ada yg g naik basikal, main bball. then lps tu aku main badminton sama afiq. grr, tak reti pukul (aku pun lebih kurg je). kejap2 terlajak ke kiri lah, kanan lah. terkeluar la (kalau dlm court mmg terkeluar lah). pastu asek marah aku pukul tak betul. kau tu malas jalan ke depan nak oukul bola marah aku. dkt pukul 10, smua mula bersuarai. ada yg nk main lg, ada yg nk pg breakfast, ada yg nk blk. aku blk dgn sakit jari kaki kiri. masa aku main sorg2 tu sakit. main sorg2 pun boleh sakit. pelik.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Kerana Duit

td aku sama adik dan kak yah ke jusco. niat asal hanya mahu pergi temankan adik cari buku cerita baru dan aku mahu melihat2 baju dan kasut baru. tp aku msk juga la ke mph tu. tgk2 ada buku yg aku mahu. the gift dan the debs. duit sudah ada di tgn. aku mahu. mmg mahu buku itu. sedangkan masih ada lagi 3 buku menunggu untuk aku baca. yg tebalnya tidak kurg 500-600 muka surat.mmg duit itu ada. tapi memikirkan hanya rm100++ saje dlm tgn utk aku guna selama 1bulan lg, xcukup. dan buku itu setiap satu nya minimum harganya rm29++ dan plg mahal itu rm80. bkn ummi sama abah xada tgl kn duit. ada. tp itu untuk guna brg dapur dan mkn kami adik-beradik utk sebln lebih ini. jadinya, buku itu ku letak kembali ke rak dgn harapan bila aku dtg lg nnt, duit sudah ada di tgn dan buku itu masih ada lg supaya aku boleh membeli nya.

*doa doa. amin amin*

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Fobia Aku Hilang

yes. and thanks to afiq, sbb dia yg bwk aku naik motor tu. even tak sampai lima minit pun. hehhe. ni lah kali pertama aku naik moto lepas accident dgn pa'an lebih dua tahun dulu. tapi en, aku rasa kalau naik ngn pa'an aku fobia blk. hahaha.

plan nk jog and skip start cuti ni dah dua hari xjadi. tapi nasib baik diet ok jugak. but sekarang tgh runny nose. kemas rumah en, habuk. aku boleh naik ruam nnt. hahaha. along blk minggu dpn, yes. boleh keluar tanpa rasa bersalah. haha.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I Miss Him

this was taken during one of his trip when he was in pakistan i think.



yes. i miss my dad. terribly. even more because just now when i went to his toilet - my sister and i have been sleeping and using our parents room sisnce they left for madinah&haji - i smell his perfume. could be my sister who spray it all around until it pain my nostrils. haha. or maybe it just me because i miss him too much. grrr, one more month to go.


btw, i didn't eat my dinner. just because i'm too sleepy. i slept at about 1945. then, around 2300 to 0000 i woke up and felt like my head has been hitting something, hard. now, i'm having a major headache. need to ask doctor rafizi about this. because it already happen too often. some of you already know what my doctor suspect until i need to do MRI test.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Buatlah Ulasan Jika Mahu

MAC
Berpesonaliti menarik dan menawan.
- menarik? sikit, mungkin. menawan, mungkin hampir tiada. -

Mudah didampingi.
- iya. tapi kalau kamu menjengkelkan saya, maaf la. -

Sangat pemalu dan pemendam rasa.
- pemalu untuk perkara yang patut. pememdam rasa, iya. -

Sangat baik secara semulajadi, jujur pemurah dan mudah simpati.
- baik semulajadi, mungkin. jujur, bukan selalu. pemurah, ya. mudah simpati pun ya. -

Sangat sensitif pada perkataan yang dituturkan dan alam persekitaran.
- sekarang ya, kerana hormon tunggang terbalik. alam persekitaran, bukan 100% -

Suka pada kedamaian.
- siapa yang tidak? sngat suka jika boleh escape ke tepi pantai atu jungle mana-mana -

Sangat peka pada orang lain.
- iya. kan pemerhati. -

Sesuai dengan kerjaya yang memberi khidmat kepada orang lain.
- mungkin. tapi bukan guru. saya tak tahan. tp xtau lah. :) -

Tidak cepat marah dan sangat amanah.
- amanah ya. kalau tak, xde lah saya jadi ahli lembaga koperasi 2 tahun berturut2. SAYA CEPAT MARAH. -

Tahu membalas dan mengenang budi.
- amin, mudah-mudahan. -

Pemerhatian dan penilaian yang sangat tajam.
- hahaha. ada saya maklum kan di entry ini. -

Kecenderungan untuk berdendam jika tidak dikawal.
- *pukul kepala* betul betul. -

Suka berangan-angan.
- sukaaaaaa. -

Suka melancong.
- saaaangaaattt. -

Sangat manja dan suka diberi perhatian yang sangat tinggi.
- suka diberi perhatian tapi tak perlu banyak. saya tak manja. harap maklum. -

Kelam kabut dalam memilih pasangan.
- kalau kelam kabut, sudah lama saya berteman. -

Suka dengan hiasan rumah tangga.
- sangat. cita2 saya mahu jadi suri rumah. -

Punya bakat seni dalalm bidang muzik.
- iya ka? sila nilai. -

Kecenderungan pada benda yang istimewa dan baik.
- heheheheh. *sambil angguk angguk*

Jangan terlalu mengikut selera atau perasaan
- akan dicuba. -


JANUARI

Bercita-cita tinggidan orangnya serius
suka mendidik dan dididik
Sangat mudah melihat kelemahan orang dan suka mengkritik
Rajin setiap yang dibuat nampak keuntungan
Suka pada kecantikan, kekemasan dan teratur
Bersifat sensitif dan berfikiran mendalam
Pandai mengambil hati orang lain
Pendiam kecuali telah dirangsang
Agak pemalu dan mempunyai daya tumpuan yang sangat tinggi
Mudah mendisiplinkan diri sendiri
Badannya sihat tetapi mudah diserang selsema
Bersikap romantik tetapi tidak pandai memperlihatkannya
Cukup sayang pada kanak-kanakSuka duduk di rumah
Setia pada segala-galanya
Perlu belajar kemahiran bersosial
Sifat cemburu yang sangat tinggi

FEBRUARI

Berfikiran abstrak. Sukakan benda yang realiti dan abstrak. Bijak dan pintar.
Berpewatakan yang mudah berubah. Mudah menawan orang lain.
Agak pendiam. Pemalu dan rendah diri.
Jujur dan setia pada segalanya.
Keras hati untuk mencapai matlamat.
Tidak suka dikongkong. Mudah memberontak apabila dikongkong. Suka kegiatan yang lasak.
Emosinya mudah terluka dan sangat sensitif.
Mudah mempamerkan marahnya. Tidak suka benda yang remeh-temeh.
Suka berkawan tapi kurang mempamerkannya.
Sangat berani dan suka memberontak.
Bercita-cita tinggi, suka berangan-angan dan ada harapan untuk merealisasikan impiannya.
Pemerhatian yang tajam.
Suka hiburan dan sukan. Suka benda yang bersifat seni.
Sangat romantik pada dalaman tetapi tidak pada luaran.
Berkecenderungan pada benda yang tahyul.
Amat mudah dan boleh menjadi terlalu boros.
Belajar untuk mempamerkan emosi.

MAC
Berpesonaliti menarik dan menawan.
Mudah didampingi.
Sangat pemalu dan pemendam rasa.
Sangat baik secara semulajadi, jujur pemurah dan mudah simpati.
Sangat sensitif pada perkataan yang dituturkan dan alam persekitaran.
Suka pada kedamaian.
Sangat peka pada orang lain.
Sesuai dengan kerjaya yang memberi khidmat kepada orang lain.
Tidak cepat marah dan sangat amanah.
Tahu membalas dan mengenang budi.
Pemerhatian dan penilaian yang sangat tajam.
Kecenderungan untuk berdendam jika tidak dikawal.
Suka berangan-angan.
Suka melancong.
Sangat manja dan suka diberi perhatian yang sangat tinggi.
Kelam kabut dalam memilih pasangan.
Suka dengan hiasan rumah tangga.
Punya bakat seni dalalm bidang muzik.
Kecenderungan pada benda yang istimewa dan baik.
Jangan terlalu mengikut selera atau perasaan

APRIL

Sangat aktif dan dinamik.
Cepat bertindak membuat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal.
Sangat menarik dan pandai menjaga diri.
Punya daya mental yang sangat kuat.
Suka diberi perhatian.
Sangat diplomatik (pandai memujuk ).
Berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah orang.
Sangat berani dan tiada perasaan takut.
Suka perkara yang mencabar, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah. E
emosi cepat terusik. Cuba kawal perasaan.
Kecenderungan bersifat pendendam.
Agresif dan kelam kabut dalam membuat keputusan.
Kuat daya ingatan.
Gerak hati yang sangat kuat.
Pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan orang lain.
Berpenyakit disekitar kepala dan dada.
Sangat cemburu dan terlalu cemburu.

MEI

Keras hati & degil.
Kuat semangat & bermotivasi tinggi.
Pemikiran yang tajam.
Mudah marah apabila tidak dikawal.
Pandai menarik hati & perhatian orang lain.
Perasaan yang amat mendalam.
Cantik dari segi mental & fizikal.
Tidak perlu dimotivasikan.
Tetap pendirian, tetapi mudah dipengaruhi oleh orang lain.
Mudah dipujuk.
Bersikap sistematik (otak kiri).
Suka berangan.
Kuat daya firasat memahami apa yang terlintas di hati orang lain tanpa diberitahu.
Bahagian telinga & leher mudah diserang penyakit.
Daya khayalan yang tinggi. Permikiran yang tajam.
Pandai berdebat.
Fizikal yang baik.
Kelemahan sistem pernafasan.
Suka sastera, seni & muzik serta melancong. Tidak berapa suka duduk di rumah.
Tidak boleh duduk diam. Tidak punya ramai anak.
Rajin dan bersemangat tinggi. Agak boros.

JUN

Berfikiran jauh & berwawasan.
Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik.
Berperangai lemah lembut.
Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea dan mood.
Idea yang terlalu banyak di kepala.
Bersikap sensitif.
Mempunyai pemikiran yang aktif (sentiasa berfikir).
Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera. Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh.
Bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yang terbaik.
Cepat marah & cepat sejuk.
Suka bercakap & berdebat.
Suka buat lawak & bergurau.
Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan.
Mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan.
Orang yang sangat tertib.
Pandai mempamerkan sikap.
Mudah kecil hati.
Mudah kena selsema.
Suka berkemas.
Cepat rasa bosan.
Sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet. Kurang mempamerkan perasaan.
Lambat untuk sembuh apabila terluka hati.
Suka pada barang yang berjenama.
Mudah menjadi eksekutif.
Kedegilan yang tidak terkawal.
Sesiapa yang memuji, dianggap musuh. Siapa yang menegur dianggap kawan.

JULAI

Sangat suka didamping.
Banyak berahsia dan sukar dimengerti terutamanya lelaki.
Agak pendiam kecuali dirangsang.
Ada harga dan maruah diri.
Tak suka menyusahkan orang lain tapi tidak marah apabila disusahkan.
Mudah dipujukdan bercakap lurusSangat menjaga hati orang lain.
Sangat peramah. sangat mendalam tapi mudah terluka hatinya.
Berjiwa sentimental.
Jarang berdendam. Mudah memaafkan tapi sukar melupakan.
Tidak suka benda remeh-temeh.
Membimbing cara fizikal dan mental.
Sangat peka, mengambil berat dan mengasihi serta penyayang.
Layanan yang serupa terhadap semua orang.
Tinggi daya simpati.
Pemerhatian yang tajam.
Suka menilai orang lain melalui pemerhatian.
Mudah dan rajin belajar.
Suka muhasabah diri.
Suka mengenangkan peristiwa atau kawan lama.
Suka mendiamkan diri. Suka duduk di rumah.
Suka tunggu kawan tapi tak cari kawan.
Tidak agresif kecuali terpaksa.
Lemah dari segi kesihatan perut.
Mudah gemuk kalau tak kawal diet.
Minta disayangi.
Mudah terluka hati tapi lambat pulih.
Terlalu mengambil berat.
Rajin dalam membuat kerja.

OGOS

Suka berlawak. Mudah tertawan padanya.
Sopan santun dan mengambil berat terhadap orang lain.
Berani dan tidak tahu takut.
Orangnya agak tegas & bersikap kepimpinan. Pandai memujuk orang lain.
Terlalu pemurah & bersikap ego. Nilai harga diri yang sangat tinggi.
Dahagakan pujian.
Semangat juang yang luar biasa. Cepat marah & mudah mengamuk.
Mudah marah apabila cakapnya dilawan. Sangat cemburu.
Daya pemerhatian yang tajam & teliti.
Cepat berfikir. Fikiran yang berdikari. Suka memimpin & dipimpin.
Sifat suka berangan. Berbakat dalam seni lukis, hiburan & silat.
Sangat sensitif tapi tidak mudah merajuk.
Cepat sembuh apabila ditimpa penyakit. Belajar untuk bertenang.
Sikap kelam kabut.
Romantik, pengasih dan penyayang.
Suka mencari kawan

SEPTEMBER

Sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansur.
Sangat cermat, teliti & teratur.
Suka menegur kesilapan orang lain & mengkritik.
Pendiam tapi pandai bercakap.
Sikap sangat cool, sangat baik & mudah simpati.
Sangat perihatin & terperinci, amanah, setia & jujur.
Kerja yang dilakukan sangat sempurna.
Sangat sensitif yang tidak diketahui. Orang yang banyak berfikir.
Daya pentaakulan yang baik.
Otak bijak & mudah belajar. Suka mencari maklumat.
Kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritik. Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
Mudah memahami orang lain kerana banyak menyimpan rahsia.
Suka sukan, hiburan & melancong. Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya.
Terluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan.
Terlalu memilih pasangan. Sukakan benda yang luas. Bersistematik.

NOVEMBER

Banyak idea dalam perkara.
Sukar untuk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya.
Berfikiran kehadapan. Berfikiran unik dan bijak. Penuh dengan idea-idea baru yang luarbiasa. Pemikiran yang tajam.
Daya firasat yang sangat halus dan tinggi.
Sesuai jadi seorang doktor. Cermat dan teliti.
Personaliti yang dinamik.
Sifat yang berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia.
Banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra.
Berani, pemurah setia dan banyak kesabaran.
Terlalu degil dan keras hati. Apabila berkehendak sesuatu, akan diusahakan sehingga berjaya.
Tak suka marah kecuali digugat.
Mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain. Pandai muhasabah diri. Cara berfikir yang lain dari orang lain.
Otak yang sangat tajam. Pandai mendorong diri sendiri. Tidak hargai pujian.
Kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yang sangat tinggi apabila berkehendak sesuatu. Cuba sampai berjaya.
Badan yang sasa.
Kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam dan romantik.
Tidak pasti dengan hubungan kasih sayang.
Suka duduk di rumah.
Sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi.
Amanah, jujur, setia dan pandai berahsia. Tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi.
Bercita-cita tinggi.
Perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah

DISEMBER

Sangat setia dan pemurah.
Bersifat patriotik.
Sangat aktif dalam permainan dan pergaulan.
Sikap kurang sabar dan tergesa-gesa.
Bercita-cita tinggi. Suka menjadi orang yang berpengaruh dalam organisasi.
Seronok bila didampingi. Suka bercampur dengan orang.
Suka dipuji, diberi perhatian dan dibelai.
Sangat jujur, amanah dan bertolak ansur. Tidak pandai berpura-pura.
Cepat marah. Perangai yang mudah berubah-ubah.
Tidak ego walaupun harga dirinya sangat tinggi.
Benci pada kongkongan.
Suka berlawak.
Pandai buat lawak dan berfikiran logik

Last Day

last day of school for 2008 session. it was pretty BORINGGGG. no, it was really boringggg. since i woke up this morning i'm thinking what am i going to do for the rest of the day. early in the morning, after the extremely long lecture that i don't need to explain here, went upstairs to class then i went out agin cause i was so bored, following hazim to the head of subject room. there, cikgu siti zabedah and pn malyati ask me to help them, so i did because of the boredom. after about 30 minutes, i went back to class, talk a bit with friends that i miss - aizat, pqot, amin - its been like ages since i last met them because they are now studying at boarding school. then went down for recess, i ate nasi lemak mak raja farah for the last time this year - kalau mak kau dapat tender kantin sekolah lagi tahun depan boleh aku makan lagi. after that i went up to the staff room because i need to get the key to school coperation to take co-curicular book for nadir. after returning the key to pn zakiah, i spend a little time at her place, talking to her and ustazah faridah - mereka berdua adalah guru terapat dengan aku. then went to editorial board computer which situated not far from her place, just to see the final touch that my friends do. then i was helping pn zakiah cutting the fruits. that was like the fourth time i'm cutting fruits - ada besar, ada kecik. hahahaha. then helping few other teacher until about almost noon i went down to the open hall, sit with my friends. before went back, we kissed and hugged each other. like ussually we did before we went home, it just we don't hug.
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books checklist:-

books that being borrowed:
- Runaway at alina
- Step On It, Cupid at bella
- Goddess Games at hajar
- If You Could See Me Now at sammy
- Little Secrets 2&3 at cheeza

currently at me:
- Where Rainbows End borrowed from siu wern

will be borrow soon:
- A Place Called Here borrow from siu wern
- Thanks For The Memories borrow from siu wern

want to buy:
- Heaven Looks A Lot Like The Mall
- The Debs
- Jenny Green's Killer Junior Year
- The Gift
- One Fifth Avenue
- Seduse Me At Sunrise
*if anyone have any of these books, tell me. so i don't have to buy them. :)

already read:
- countless. ;p

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Buy For Me


for my next birthday? no, my birthday is not coming until the next 4 1/2 months. for new year? yeah. for new year present.
pretty please. :)
by the way, it cost about rm80. ;p

Hilang Skill!

aku hilang skill masak telur. yes. telur goreng. dah tak lawa. what ever you say, aku suka kalau telur aku lawa. sunny dia mesti lawa. tapi sejak dua minggu ni dah buuuruuuuukkkkkk. :(

Aku Ingin Merasakan Ini

"Anakku, tunggulah nanti sebentar lagi ketika kau sudah duduk di ruang tamu dan gadis itu masuk bersama walinya, kau akan merasakan panas dingin yang luar biasa. Panas dingin yang belum pernah kau rasakan. Apalagi di kala kau dan dia nanti sesekali mencuri pandang. Suasana hatimu tidak akan boleh kaulupakan seumur hidupmu. Inilah keindahan Islam. Dalam Islam hubungan lelaki perempuan disucikan sesuci-sucinya, namun tanpa mengurangi keindahan romantisnya."

indah bukan rasa itu? menjalani sesuatu yang halal di atas jalan-Nya. tapi bagi kes aku, sudah semestinya aku perempuan yang akan bersama waliku masuk ke ruangan di mana lelaki itu menunggu. :)


*petikan diambil dari bab 18:pertemuan, novel ayat-ayat cinta karya habiburrahman el shirazy.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Monkey That Taking Care The White Tigers

adorable isn't it? :)

the monkey name is anjana while the white tiger is mitra and shiva. the monkey have been taking care of the two tigers. she - i guess its female because of the motherness in it, have been taking care one tiger before but being seperated after the tiger grew adult for it's safety.

Mia Rose

sebab adik aku tak kasi aku post pasal sorang singer yang dia jumpa di youtube dan yang ditunjukkan pada aku, aku akan post pasal singer yang aku jumpa berbulan-bulan lepas. mia rose nama dia. aku jumpa masa browsing kat youtube. ni salah satu lagu dia yang aku suka. tajuknya *lawrence.



nanti-nanti lah lepas adik aku post pasal singer tu, aku pulak post.

Aku Jatuh Cinta

iya! sama ini gadis punya lagu. sangat cool. saya suka lagu dia. :)
ouh. namanya yuna.

Because It Just Too Much

i've cried too many times today. must be the hormone AGAIN. and because of that, i getting myself a horrible headache. damn! it has been for almost 6 hours now. i don't know if i can take it. i might go to bed after this.

yeah, i'm sort of suffer myself by sleeping late.

It's Good

when people care about you. even more if you know about it. you'll felt like somebody is watching over you, you have someone to hold on to.

as you know my parents are not in the country for the next one and half month. so the uncles and aunties and also the neighbours are sort of taking over their job. their are sort of taking care of us. my phone rang non stop. cause after one another calling me, asking how are we, are we okay, do we aet well and etc.

it's good that somebody taking care and you know it. but if it's already off limits, that's so wrong.


well, uncles, aunties and neighbours, i just want to say, thank you for look out for us. :)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Ouh Yea

and the form 5-ers are taking their spm starting on today until the next few weeks. looking at them, something knock me and made me realise that i only have only ONE YEAR before its my time to take spm. i'm deadly nervous for them you know. and by that, it also means, i only have ONE YEAR left before i finish my school days. how time fly fast. damn, i still want to be a school kid eventhough i almost give up my study early of this year. yeah, i almost give up. thanks to my sisters who were there when i made decision to stop my study. they mad at me of course. but thanks to god they didn't slap me. i think they felt like slapping me that time. haha.

Tentang Keletihan Aku Dan Kawan-Kawan

aku tak tahu lah apa pasal. minggu ni aku rasa peeeenaaattttt sangat. memang memuncak gila la. padahal aku tak buat apa pun sangat. di tambah pula dengan sakit kepala aku (mesti blood pressure aku something wrong lagi ni) dan batuk aku yang menyebabkan aku rasa macam thyroid aku nak terkeluar. haih. tak tahan la macam ni. mungkin sebab panas kot. ni la yang membuatkan aku tak suka duduk kat kota lumpur ni. panas sangat.

kawan-kawan pulak satu hal. tegur salah, tak tegur salah. aku tegur nanti cakap aku berlagak baik. padahal dah aku sayang, ada yang kurang enak di mata dan telinga, aku tegur. haih. ni la kawan. racun dia, penawar dia. kalau dah sayang, tak boleh buat apa. yang dalam complete mess, dalam complete mess la. yang bergaduh, dengan tak mahu bertegurnya. yang tak puas hati, asyik dia saja yang betul. haih. aku ni kadang serba salah nak tegur. entah laa. adoii. haih, susah la sayang orang ni - "kadang-kadang orang yang paling kita sayang tu la orang yang paling susah untuk disayangi."

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

Monday, November 10, 2008

Ubatan

ubat-ubatan dicipta untuk menyebuh kan penyakit. tapi malangnya bagi org seperti saya ini yang tak suka makan ubat, ubat yg diberi tiga suku paket penuh bru suku habis untuk masa hapir dua bulan setengah ini. patut lah thyroid kau makin besar. ye, tau. penyeksaan diri. sudah diberi ubat, tak mahu makan. tapi bagaimana? sudah tak suka. walau pun hanya 4 1/2 biji sahaja sehari, tetap penyeksaan, kala tekak kamu rasa terlalu sempit. (mmg aku rasa tekak aku sempit sbb thyroid ni makin besar)

haih haih haih.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Fatin Zulaikha


i love her. i miss her. babe, we really need a girl talk. and a fun outings. and sleepover. there's a lot to catch up. ouh, and picnic toooo!

ps: she never really left me when she moved to shah alam.

"on top of oh-so-hot-right-now list:
i wanna have picnic with them, yes my dear toppy friends.
ok and let me do the menu, thre will be sandwiches, colorful of donut(yummy) and im thnking about baking cupcakes and pizza:DDDD"

Highlight Of Next Month


yeahh! wajib pergi. sudah 2 thn xpdt pergi. if thn ni xdpt lg habis la. gG, kamu tahu tempat nya kan?

Because I'm Bored

Descr​ibe in 2 words​ what ended​ your last relat​ionsh​ip?​
my stupidity

When was the last time you shave​d your legs?
perlu apa aku shave kaki aku. bulu pun mcm xde.

What were you doing​ this morni​ng at 7am?
tidur laa.

What were you doing​ 15 minut​es ago?
was reading book.

Are you any good at math?
used too. but because i'm too lazy, i even failed my math. with a extremely low mark that i never imagine.

What were you doing​ yesterday?
online myspace for quarter of the day, new entry here, eat at kg baru. ;p

If you saw your last ex right​ now, what would​ you say?
well, something personal. i've been thinking to talk to him about that particular something for few months now.

Last thing​ you recei​ved in the mail?
junk mail.

How many diffe​rent bever​ages have you had today​?​
two.

What'​s one thing​ you wish to chang​e about​ yours​elf?​
i don't know. my eating habbit?

What do you wish for?
yeah hajar. great days during holiday.

Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach​?​
yea, sometimes.

What is outsi​de your bedro​om windo​w?​
pokok apa tah.

Do you have a secre​t crush​?​
not a secret. some of my family know. even my mom can smell it. belum cakap sama abah je lg. and org itu tak tahu. haaaa, amek kau!

Do you keep in touch​ with your exes?
not with two of them. lost contact. yg lain ye, tp normal je. but, one of them are not talkning to me. haha. ramai btl ex aku. kanak2 zaman skrg.

Do you disli​ke anyon​e right​ now?
sort of.

Somet​hing you are excit​ed about​?
rantai2008

What is on your mind right​ now?
bed bed bed. i want to sleep.

When was the last time you spoke​ in front​ of a large​ crowd​?​
i can't remember. if large means among 30 people that's last year. if large like 100++ that's when i was 12 years old.

What kind of winte​r coat do you have?
leather coat. it look a bit like trench coat.

If you were paid 1 milli​on dolla​rs to spend​ the night​ in a suppo​sed haunt​ed house​,​ would​ you do it?
i don't know

If you could​ trade​ place​s with any perso​n livin​g or dead,​ who would​ you trade​ place​s with?
i don't want to trade place with them.

If you could​ short​en your life expec​tancy​ by 10 years​ to becom​e more attra​ctive​,​ would​ you do it?
no?

What was your favor​ite bedti​me story​ as a child​?​
couldn't remember. goldilocks, snow white, tortoise and rabbit, and some moree.

A woman​ says her baby is trapp​ed insid​e,​ what would​ you do?
in her tummy? funny.

As your walki​ng down the stree​t you find a suitc​ase full of money​ sitti​ng next to a parke​d car, would​ you take it?
yes. and runaway with it. hahaha. maybee.

Do you belie​ve in ghost​s,​ werew​olves​ or vampi​res?​
they live with us.

If you could​ live forev​er,​ would​ you want to?
want to what?

If you could​ go back in time,​ which​ time perio​d would​ you visit​?​
as a kids. :) but i looooove my life rigth now with my friends whom sometimes can be pain in arse.

Would​ you rathe​r live longe​r or be wealt​hy?​
live longer. :)